less than this

From me, on Twitter, a few hours ago:

"My mind is all mushy. Too much free energy, perhaps. Too many little things bouncing around and off each other. I need a lens."

Signs I have not been blogging enough: It's June 4th, and there are no June blog posts yet!  Tragedy, I know.  This is why I'm not a "blogger" as they say.  I just don't care enough, especially about posting on any well-defined schedule.  I want to post when I have something to say, not to have to come up with something to say because it's time to post.

Unfortunately, right now, I don't have much to say.  My mind has been ... swimming, lately.  Ungrounded.  Unfocused.  A lot of incomplete thoughts and ideas and plans floating around, but none of them sticking.  Nothing really coming together.  Not enough focus.  Ooh, maybe a list will help:

• Write a study guide, annotated edition, and/or companion to Dragons' Truth
• Paint some new paintings
• Figure out how to use manipulation of relativity for 1/2-done, broken story
• Write 3 or 4 new time-related stories
• Get over fear of marketing
• Get ready for First Friday Art Walk
• Work on Sin Eater book
• Decide how you want to record Lost and Not Found & prepare for it
• Do some more videos
• Do something with your mess of a hair-do
• learn bookkeeping/accounting/something
• clean
• play more Rock Band
• twitter more
• plurk more (or ...less?)
• edit existing time-related stories
• work on painting of "The Phoenix & The Lobster" as it is being called around here
• put together a mailing list
• figure out some new ways to market books
• buy some pegboard hooks
• wire up more paintings
• speaking of which, select the paintings I want to take with me to the Art Walk
• start a new poetry journal
• blog more
• add dragonstruth.com to teelmcclanahan.com
• add Chapter 1 of the D'T audiobook to dragonstruth.com
• link to dragonstruth.com from the listings for D'T on Modern Evil Press
• cry
• write study guides for the time-related stories
• figure out why ASU hasn't re-admitted me yet
• do I really want to go back to school in the Fall?
• is it actually a good idea to go further into debt?
• I know it'll help keep the bills paid, and I'll end up with a Fine Arts degree, but... I worry
• last month I only had $175 in revenue, and over $600 in business expenses: WTF?
• the bulk of that was to be able to make the audiobooks, but so far: Zero Sales
• probably because of very little marketing
• probably because I don't like marketing
• bleh

I don't know.  I don't know.  I just don't know.